Even booze doesn't help.
How can it not help?
even for an hour.
one happy hour.
I can't live in a lie anymore. But I can't tell the truth either.
what's left to do?

It's the sound of slashing I hear, the reddish liquid in the tub, the silence. Drowning slowly. suffocating. getting hard to breath. no air. alone. lonely. memories. silence again.reality. tear. another. cry. too much fluid. scared. seeking. longing. LONGING. Longing. lie. another lie. peace. love. silence. ? .